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2008-07-14T16:10:00.003+08:00

as of now, adrena's on the way back to australia. and i miss her already. no more lepak at her place. no more x-box. no more movies or boston legal marathon. and no more adrena.

so, hurry back home.

2008-06-26T02:38:00.004+08:00

shutterfly's updated!

2008-06-24T23:20:00.002+08:00

today was great!

adrena, feli and me went to town. penelope was awesome. window shopping became tiring aft a while. adrian came; dinner at breeks. finished the day off with drink at coffee bean and a lift home =)

ouh. iqbal called. hope u're doin fine. and yes, iqbal. the engine room is stuffy, and warm and big. go learn more. haha!

2008-06-23T22:00:00.002+08:00

it was a lazy sunday. had a bad case of stomachache. really, really terrible.

today felt like a weekend. it was a lazy monday too. bought lots of chocolates this aftnn. watch sitcoms on cable all evening.

im getting lazier. tt's nt good, i know. how?

2008-06-21T17:59:00.002+08:00

all ends well, after all the tiring and some blood-boiling trainings. we've managed to get away with best parade commander, Champion in standard drill. overall, we attained the second place. not too bad, coz i would have nvr expected tt. well done, cadets.

im so proud of u guys. congrats on winning, though it's nt overall champion, it's still def worth all those trainings that u've been dreading. once again, congrats. & thank u for going all out today =)

next project : Adventure Training Camp. August.

it was a packed week. done with drill comp, i guess i have more spare time for leisure plans. feli!! next week okaayyy???!

it's a nice start to the weekend =)

2008-06-15T21:30:00.002+08:00

malay weddings are annoying when they blast the music wayyy too loud; to the point when u're staying on the highest storey in the block and u cant hear wat's on ur teevee even though it's already at maximum volume.

since i came back from camp, i've been sleeping early. i dunno why. i might be heading to bed soon. early, rite?

i feel soo lucky to have cable channels. star world's havin re-runs of Friends every weeknite, 2 eps. daily. happy, happy.

lunch wit the boys tmr =)

2008-06-14T19:27:00.002+08:00

u're just like the men we talked and cried about. unreliable and cunning. very disappointed. i feel stopid; just the way how those men we talked abt at times made u and me feel. u know better. u could have tried.

14june08. tricycle. quadcycle. BICYCLE. =)
time spent aft training was draining, yt very enjoyable. day out with the cadets at pasir ris park was the highlight of my saturday. im covered with bruises all over, just as i was abt to recover from wed's nite out aches. haha.

iqbal is finally leaving on the 18th. one by one going off. dinner with the boys on mon, prolly. take care, daddy =) bring me back hot white men. yummy. hahaha.

tmr shall be a break for me. the whole has been too happening. but im pleased with it, despite tt single shit which i cant believe the girls and i fell for. oh wells. we fell, we have to pick ourselves again rite? and we sure will. we've learnt this time around.

2008-06-12T21:14:00.002+08:00

it has been a hectic week for me since last fri. lack of sleep, too hyperactive and eating at irregular hours.

11jun08. the nite when we had a real girls' nite out, with daniel being the pimp. the nite when things started off horribly with lost items and really stopid antics. the nite when ppl seem so freaky; extra extra freaky. the nite when we all let loose. i know i did. the nite when we all had fun =) thank you.

intensive training for upcoming drill comp. screwietoos.

pending meetups wit victor and elfi and feli. when?

nites.

2008-06-01T23:36:00.002+08:00

it had been one fun evening wit siti, ali and ema.

emo talk- checked
loud laughs- checked
pictures- CHECKED!

i cant wait for adrena to come backkk!!!!

i feel now my life is falling nicely into place. maybe, it's just the effects of the meetup just now. hah. my goal rite now is get a degree; decent enuf to allow me to earn a good starting pay when i enter the workforce.

have a great week, darlings.

2008-05-30T20:36:00.002+08:00

it was graduation day '08 ystday. i brought my dlsr, but forgot the memory card. shit.

the whole big hooo-haa was onli the moment when u go up that stage and shook hands with the director upon receiving the empty scroll box. yes, empty. while walking across the short length across the stage, our faces were being projected on a few screens. so, smile, and dun trip. and that was the onli moment of glory.

but for those received multiple awards, tt was a whole different story. sth i wouldnt know. anyhoos, it's all fun aft tt. picture taking and making plans.

i dun feel i deserve tt ceremony, but i felt i've achieved something. though it's nt something to be proud of, credits should be given, even a little. haha.

and ali has been asking me out. sorry babe. im packed for next week too. adrena's coming back soon; ill be free then =)

im hanging on. and i think im doin quite a good job so far.

2008-05-24T22:31:00.002+08:00

sooo. i've been filling up my time with npcc once again. i found tt tiny teeny weeny passion. i missed it. and im glad i tried to revive it.

played pool with irah. attended elfi's chalet. mak oi. KECOH. but it was lovely, spending time wit elfi and smoke. happy 20th, elfi. sakit jiwe. haha.

i cant believe the situation im in. i cant believe it would even happen. trust is fragile. i fucking dunno wat to do rite now. im angry at u; yt im very frustrated with myself. was i just plain stupid? i fucking dunno wat to do.

2008-05-15T17:56:00.004+08:00

my ALDO accessories have arrived. ystday morn, actually. and boy, it was a boxful of stuff. necklaces, earrings, bangles and bracelets. there's a few of those chunky kind of earrings and bangles; im nt the kind tt can pull it off. im considering to sell them off. maybe.

as u can see frm the pics, an item cost ard USD10- 20. and there's sooo many of them. the seller even threw in another plastic full of free items. cool, huh. and yea, all that are ziplogs. hahha..

ystday was also a crazyy day! but i truly enjoyed myself =)

2008-05-12T22:58:00.004+08:00

i swear i dun understand the craze tt's going on in the malay community; wat else if it's not abt the latest movie or book or watever it is titled 'ayat-ayat cinta'. i really, really dun get it. it's buzzing, and it's getting to me. ugh.

out of nowhere, this show wat-so-ever became some popular hit. wat the hell. even my mom wants to watch it at the cinema.

i dunno la.. but it's effing annoying. maybe it's just another movie as similar as tt indon movie 'my heart'; or was tt the soundtrack? yea. sth like tt. apparently, reviews have been superb on the mentioned show.

ayat ayat cinta. rite. wat good can come out of it. not tt im not supporting the malay entertainmt industries. ouh. i just realised tt i dun even know where's the movie from. s'pore, m'sia or indon?

eeee. wat's goin on? anybody??

moving on to sth real, im sorry u didnt get it. i feel for u. but like i said, dun let this bring u down. dun let this deter u from having a good life. try again. no harm. for now, have a backup plan, just in case u aren't successful the second time. dun worry. ur frens are here for u. im here for u; coz i know how sucky it feels to have ur plans blow up in ur face, and left nowhere to go. stay positive, gorgeous. everything will eventually be alright. =)

and yes. a very, very important date today to take note. you have been such a good partner. when i first started off u were there, telling ppl to give me a chance and to stop bugging me. u did ur job good. im gona miss u. u have to go, but ill put u on again sometimes in the future, just for the fun of it. heh. so, here goes...

GOODBYE P-PLATE!!!

=)

2008-05-11T02:05:00.002+08:00

Happy Pangea Day.

Stories of hope, unity & understanding. Once again, an effort to make the world a better place to live in.

2008-05-10T00:25:00.004+08:00

it was a crazy friday nite.

i cant believe we did wat we did. i cant believe we'd pull it off. hahha. adrena, chins & shahidah. u missed it all.

multishots with d40 makes us happy. and oooo, tt hot guy on the train. he's attached.. but such an eye candy. ouhh, yea.

im still high on last nite's crime =)

2008-05-09T00:09:00.000+08:00

Oh, mr.bungler!

read the paper ystday? a stupid man attempted to rob a 7-11 outlet at bradell mrt during a peak hour. unwise choice to start with. he's extra dumb, bcoz there were cctvs both outside and inside of the store. he's extra, extra dumb bcoz the cashier on duty managed to sneak out of the store when he was doing his 'shopping', and locked the man up from outside. haha. bodoh, bodoh. after which, he threw fits, smashing stuffs, in the store while people looked on, like visitors to the zoo looking at a monkey in its cage. for heaven's sake, someone even saw him tie a handkerchief over his face before he started his oh-so-successful plan. when the police arrive, he even got tased since he was unwilling to back down. he's dumb, beyond hope.

some envy me coz im having ALL the free time in the world. right. hah. it's not fun at all, u know. it's not fun coz there's nt much cash to spare from my savings account anymore. and it's not tt i dun wanna work. im just stuck in between.

it's soo frustrating. actually i've got acceptance letter from MDIS, university of bradford. majority of u might go 'mdis? tt's nt too good, isnt it?'. and so did my parents; saying the degree from the mentioned university wont be recognised here. and that SIM, or SMU might be a better choice. yea, it is. but i know i cant get in. ppl keep saying have faith, be positive and all tt shit; but competing with ppl with million tons better than myself doesnt leave me with much chances. bcoz of tt, i have to reject mdis' offer, and await SIM and SMU letter of acceptance, even though ive told the parents tt alot ppl i know have received the letter.

i just so dunno wat to do.

things like these make me hate them so bloody much. i realise they sacrifice much, work their ass off to make ends meet. i understand tt. but at the age of twenty, i feel suffocated once again. again and again. they cant seem to let me go. even for a bit. i fucking wish they just do. i wonder until when im gonna be kept on a leash.

they say they're afraid things might befall me if i stay out too late, and also bcoz they care and all. other kids' parents allow them to stay out late, and dun make a fuss even if they dont come home tt nite. and so, these parents dont care or love their kids, since they dun even control their kids' decisions?

im tired of the same problem again and again. i need to live my life. but they dun get it. at all. they are still caught up in their conservative world, their own methods. after all the things they've done for me, i hate them. i dun wanna live life like them.

aaaaaaaaaaarggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
i need to get out of here. i need patience. i need a miracle.

i want.......

2008-05-06T22:49:00.005+08:00

i swear ill get a maid when i have my own place.

Cleaned up a small portion of my room was a TOTAL chore. it was just a small corner on my desk. it's been years since i've touched tt area, coz i've found many, many old stuff.

a few of the stuffs i cleared

look at the dust. haha!

as i've said, it's been years since i touched tt area on my desk. found this birthday gift from ems for my 15th. those days when she called herself 'ema mathers'. hahah..

found these cute stamps, or known as "chops" =)

Old dvds and cd-rs...

my long time ago mp3. haiz..

these 4 pieces of papers are the results of not paying attention in class. wat's written on it is a story, contributed by hazeeq, iqbal and yours truly. i almost forgot tt we did all this within an hour. wat's more, it's covered both front and back pages. titled as 'scary movie 3/4', it's a story which has no fixed plot, and stupid characters- amaraja, powerpuff girls, pokemons, bomoh, fairy and sorts. it's amazing la, coz each person onli was supposed to write 3 words each time. all 7 pages in an hour.

a doorbell constructed during yr 1, i think.

notes, notes, notes.

ah, Taufik's first album.

photos from primary and sec sch days. I WANNA BE A TEENAGER AGAIN!

watched Ironman today. and it was the best movie i've seen so far this year. cool, cool. good humour too. worth every cent, and im not exaggerating. go watch.

went shopping; not for myself. but for mother's day. money, money, money. everything money. aiyoh!

hahahaha.

ta~

2008-05-02T21:49:00.002+08:00

Im sooo tired of bumming around. I think it's getting a bit too much. But im too lazy too work. so, how?

I HAVE TO BLOG ABT THIS. hahaha! not the bumming. abt me buying sth off ebay.com. woohoo! It's a bunch of Aldo accessories- 50 pieces to be exact. It consists of shades, beautiful earrings, bangles and such. Bought from a US seller, thus everything was worth around, say, USD 700? BUT, i got the whole lot at onliii USD 35. YEAA! even if i were to get everything here, it still costs more than USD 35. downside of it is that i had to see all the money that i've saved go to paying the postage tt's worth USD 34.55. ouch! but, the items were such a bargain! i couldnt help it. sooo, i have to postpone dates with frens again. sorry. the feedbacks on this seller is pretty good. for now, all i hoping that the items arrived promptly and in one piece. *crosses fingers*

Spent the whole evening updating the links page. Some are there to stay, others i had to go thru links after links to find their new ones. A few are just there for keeps' sake. Like syaril's blog. There contained the some of the most vivid days in sec sch. Yes. The old times.

How im doin wit the blogging, huh? So far so good kan.. hahha.

Have a happy weekend. Or at least try to.

2008-05-02T01:01:00.002+08:00

i have nvr bought 5 books at one go. yea. i've got myself 5 books today at the MPH sale. cheap nk mampos. 5 bucks a piece. and there's millions of books. im not exaggerating. go see for urself, and drown in the sea of novels.

made myself salad, and that's all for dinner. i love cooking. but my kitchen is too dull for cooking glorious recipes. know what i mean?

getting rich aint easy. and i haven't stop wondering how do those super wealthy ppl become filthy rich at such a young age. if i could, i'd kill those of my age driving luxury cars and have credit cards with no limits. i do know money isn't that all important. but living in a society with most of its ppl so materialistic, u cant help, once a while, crave to attain some sort of status and wealth. and given s'pore is evolving into a much developed city faster and faster, having money does help u, and can bring u to places.

just a thought. what's a blog for, if i dun pen my thoughts down. yea. who cares if no one's coming here anymore. haha. blogging's good. yea. i miss blogging.

gd morning.

2008-05-01T01:05:00.002+08:00

i truly, truly miss school.

i went back to school to check if i've got fines to clear and also to have lunch wit jon! FC2 is now miraculously a whole new foodcourt; with new seats and tables and a theme to motivate students to save earth, i think. other than tt, food and all else were pretty much the same. once again, i miss school.

after all tt walking around, we sat by the corridors of workshop 1, despite the heat and all. it was time well spent. over 2hrs there, and there was non stop chatters and laughs. snapped a few poses; to remind us in the years to come of our frenship, still going strong since year 1.

though poly life didnt make a huge impact in this life of mine, little treasures such as frens and time spent there definitely will never be forgotten. i promise.

2008-04-29T21:30:00.002+08:00

today, B&J free cone day =) harold and kumar: escape from guantanamo bay was hilarious! warning: content consists of a very mature themes =)

bought an agatha christie novel- a collection of stories in it. hope it's a good read.

bumped into a few of SP-ians. and i feel old. im bumping into frens from poly already. ugh.

and yes, im still unemployed.

2008-04-27T14:23:00.002+08:00

hello.

i wonder if anyone still reads this blog of mine. it's been 4 mths.

oh well. since im done wit school, and awaiting reply from multiple universities tt i've applied too, i should have ALL the time in the world to update my blog. ahh, suppossedly. laziness overcomes everything else, i guess.

honour's day was orite. finally had the chance to wear the prestigious No. 1 Uniform. tt is the one with the one top. u know? dunno? nvm. a minister came down as the guest of honour, thus we were allowed to wear tt ceremonial dress. however, the cadets nowadays dun deserve to wear it. not all, in fact. it's just sad that it has come to a standard tt's just satisfactory, but still being passed on as a deserving performance. i think the only reason y i stayed on as a CI aft siglap's NPCC drop so bloody much was bcoz of the trips to HQ. yes. the chance to oogle at hot NS boys, and young FIs in uniform. lean bodies, strong arms. tell me, who wont have a bit of crush on these men? however, all along, these have been schoolgirl crushes only, and nothing more.

thanks to adrena, facebook took most of my time lately. haha. my life is pretty stagnant (hah. wat's new?). it's either stay at home and sit my ass down and drown myself wit cable teevee, or go out and.. yea. just go out. i have no job, thus no money. so, everytime i'd go out, i have to hope that some notes are sticking out from underneath books, or around my dressing table. argh. y is there no school? school= allowances= savings. now, none of those.

i did try relief teaching at, where else, siglap. it made me think twice abt making teaching as one of my career options. thank god i hadnt applied to NIE. imagine if i was accepted and i took up the offer; man, there's no turning back. maybe it's sec sch. pri sch would be better? who knows. but watever is it, teachers should be paid more than wat they are being paid now. and those of u who made it difficult for ur teachers back then, u BETTER apologise to ur teachers soon, and mean it. unless the teacher was really an ass =)

adrena's very whiny. ali is abit more richer since her pay is coming in- read: even ali has a job already. siti is skinnier still. ems starting school tmr. aisyah having her holidays, but starting her new term soon.

as for me, my butt is getting bigger and my savings account is becoming emptier.

2007-12-08T23:13:00.000+08:00

yesterday was hectic. rushing thru assignmts, and having a sudden flu didnt help in anyway at all.

today, had training at siglap sec. sara and hafidz came down. after training which was just so-so, had lunch at white sands as usual, with hafidz giving us a lift there. *male drivers.. haha!* then, the cadets wanted to go arcade, as usual also. so, off we went.. spent like almost an hr there, i think. haha.. i got hooked layan-ing these kids. it was fun & refreshing being in the company of the young ones.

reached home. makan again... and watched s'pore vs m'sia sea game match. gosh. s'pore was damn slow in reacting... but they did orite. m'sia... i dunno wat to say la ehh. tt guy who scored.. erm, aidil or sth, i think. he was spreading his arm when he scored the goal. pleasssee, ok. it's onli ONE goal. and that didnt help ur team at all into the semis. fly off home, already, oritee. ouuuhh. and s'pore team's medic is a lady, u know. haha.. how i wish i was in her place. ooo. being surrounded by all the, though stinky, but hot bodied guys. =))

had a nap, coz my flu still isnt goin away. and it's pretty tiring blowing out the mucus. eww. but it's a fact.

it's the season to be sick. so, take care of urself, darlings.

2007-12-06T21:06:00.000+08:00

im dead. im in a messed up situation. i've got assignmts due tmr, and i've started anything. furthermore, im easily distracted by teevee, blogging, window shopping, dining out. and just this evening, i was tempted to say yes to tas' offer of going out wit the girls tmr. we'll see.

today, starbucks was giving away free drinks. dropped by holland v. outlet to get a cup. veryyy cool. and i loike =)

i just don't get you.

2007-12-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

the day started off with a rushing start. was supposed to go a lil visit to a ship, royale star. but by the time i reached sch, the bus just left. frustarting. the lecturer gave me a call, sayin that they've reached the place.. like that's gonna make the situation better. so he said he's gonna wait up... then, off i went out to the main street and gt a cab to habourfront. aiyoh... so tiring. upon alighting the taxi, ran thru the crowd and up to the departure hall. wahhh seyyy. with safety shoes somemore. wat a form of exercise.

so, back to school. didnt pay attention to any of the lectures. mentally wandered off during the first lecture, and played gameboy during the second. finished up the day with a salad and topless5 at JP swensen's.

drop by the doc's for a while. nth. turned out to be some meaningless consultation.

watched the news. i think singapore is advancing too fast. a tad too fast. standard of living is getting higher and higher. don't say yearly; it's economy is getting stronger that by the next month, the cost of living here might increase a few percent. as exciting it seems, it's pretty annoying. u know, wat if one day, i really, really have to scrimp my ass just to get a cuppa frm starbucks. and wat if i cant afford to get a place of my own, which means im stuck with the control freaks parents for another decade or two of my life, b4 i can finally get one. and wat if it's to the extend of if u dun have a credit card, u're considered poor- not middle class average anymore.

soon, singapore will be the next new york, in terms of economy, of coz. in terms of entertainment, fashion and population, i think, there's still a long way to go. i mean... buildings are springing up from quiet corners and reserved streets. soon, the vintage-ness and the nostalgic essence will just be another story to tell.

orite, orite. ill stop there.

nites.

2007-12-03T23:02:00.001+08:00

sch was fun today. played cards whenever i had the chance too. heh.

went jogging after school.. it was refreshing, but a bit saddening to realise that my stamina has drowned; tremendously.

and, please la ehhh. i dun need ur car. stop making excuses of this and that and such. it's stupid, and u sound stupid making up excuses. i cant wait for the time when ill be off with my own life. see how i'll treat u then. idiot. seriouslyy.

ship visit tmr. and it's a must to wear safety shoes. ugly, ugly shoes. coz attire is casual, but have to wear safety shoes. ughh. not nice at all.

nite, darlings.

2007-12-02T21:41:00.000+08:00

so, after reading some of my frens' blogs, i miss blogging. thus, here i am.

adrena's back in s'pore, but i havent had the chance to meet up with her as much as i want to. and, it's been a while since i've last met up wit elfi.

gfs in sch are also busy with their own respective projects, and so am i. stupid, time-wasting final yr project. it's so time consuming. and no fun at all. and the time table aint any merciful either. it's nt tt bad, but the classes are not fun at all.

had a really bad sore throat lately, to the extend i couldnt speak. it was a torture, i tell you not able to talk. i tot i had throat cancer. sheeesh. but im all better now; if any of u are wondering.

muzikarama was a great success. it was a superb effort, thus resulting in a tremendous response. bravo to all of u, cubs & lions. i was impressed by the fact that negativity didnt put any of u down. well, this may be a bit overdue, but still, u guys did good. the cast were one hyped bunch! it's been a blast working with u guys; esp with asmida babe and the lovely mira. u girls, i believe, could have done it even w/o me. =)kudos!

it's already december. soon, it'll be 2008. soon, i'll be 20. no more teen. im old. nooooooooooooooooooooo.

and im still unsure abt wat im gona do after graduation.

talking abt graduation, im kinda nervous abt it, actually. the tot of not making it thru is pretty scary, and abit taunting. go, nurul, go. sprint. all the way.

damn, do i miss blogging. next goal- to revamp the links section.

no promises though. haha.

ill be right back. i promise. =)

2007-10-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

well, ystday's workshop was a whole load of fun! hahha.

im feeling kinda... left out. i feel as if someone is trying to ignore me. if not someone, then it's everyone.

who should i really turn to? who's really gonna be there for, understanding me at the same time, comfort and console me all at the same time? at this moment, it somehow seems like there's no one who fits that altogether. i always wonder why. i used to have some. however those are only memories.. but i guess, we as human beings, do drift apart sooner or later; whether we like to admit it or not.

i really dunno who to turn to.

2007-10-15T23:22:00.000+08:00

brothers & sisters is da bomb. it's love.

and i am pretty.

2007-10-15T20:05:00.000+08:00

i dun feel much of the raya magic on the first day. neither have i felt it ystday nor today. it's pretty disappointing.

sth missing, and i dunno wat. the ppl was orite. interaction was there. once again, i cant put a finger on wat's lacking this mth of syawal.

im looking forward to raya outing with the peeps. anyone else planning jln raye? am i invited? hehh.

2007-10-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

aku nak kahwin dengan TAUFIK BATISAH!!!!!

2007-10-12T20:32:00.000+08:00

selamat hari raya. maaf zahir dan batin, dengan seikhlasnya. mohon maaf atas setiap kesalahan, kasar dan silap tuturan bahasa, makan dan minum.

and so, it's syawal. it's hari raya. it's soo fast. a mth has past, just like that. time seems to have better and better stealth-like skills.

adrena, hope u're doin well over there. missing u, as always. do take care of urself.

2007-10-07T16:36:00.000+08:00

so, raye's nearing. and the excitemt aint mounting as much as it should be. i dunno why.

buke-ing out with peeps had been fun and refreshing. met up with old primary schoolmates- azlin, shahidah & faezah- after a few years already. and this certainly made my day and all the dreadfulness frm workshop disappear. =)

mom has been such a NAG. dad has been a tad too moody. my life; i dunno whether it's getting any better or much worse. maybe im just asking for too much. maybe i've been worrying too much. maybe, maybe, maybe.

i think this is a result of pms.

ta~

2007-09-29T19:29:00.000+08:00

i liked today. a few hours out of the house was spent at TM with ina, though she was half an hour late. haha.

renewed my body shop membership, got a few items and accompanied ina to get some grocery.

stop by provision shop to make up items that couldnt be found at NTUC. headed home.

ta~

2007-09-27T20:13:00.000+08:00

sooo. this whole week has been pretty smooth. and fast. it's already end of the week. first week of school gone. less than 6 mths away frm graduation, insya'Allah.

a couple more weeks more to raye. and i guess i wont be celebrating it as glamorously as usual. haha. i dunno how to explain.

5 words- ill be there for you.
anyone of you.

ta~

2007-09-22T20:08:00.000+08:00

im a happy girl now. not VERYY happy. but happy will do.

my baju raye are all s'pore based this yr. and thus, increasing the risk of me wearing the same kain AND design as well as other girls. and that's bad. coz i ALWAYS have my kain from m'sia, and have them tailor made here to the design that i want. but this yr, thanks to sch, i didnt have time to go all the way to the palace of luxurious kains. haiz. i guess i just have to do make do with i have. im happy that the cut of the baju-s are sweet and flattering, at the very least.

haha. i sound spoiled. i tend to be high maintenance at times.

and stupid, senseless quizzes are enuf to keep me satisfied. all the results of the quizzes that i did will be up soon. pathetic ah, nurul.

ta~

2007-09-22T11:55:00.000+08:00

What People Think of Your Mouth

People see you as both demanding and irresistible.
You are often the center of attention - and that's how you like it.
You are up for anything and very energetic. People sometimes propose wild ideas to you.
And who knows? Maybe you'll take them up on it. You are known to be a little freaky!

What Does Your Mouth Say About You?

Your Relationship is Still Building Strength

You're relationship is fairly strong, but you're still working on making things solid.
Make sure you're both treating each other with kindness and respect, even when things aren't going well.

How Strong Is Your Relationship With Your Guy?

You Are 66% Jealous

You're a pretty jealous person, and you've started to let it really effect your life.
While it's natural to feel a little envious of what people have, it's never healthy to take it to these extremes.
Focus on what you've got going on. And improve on the things you don't like.
Being truly happy with yourself is the only way to chase out the green eyed monster!

How Jealous Are You?

Your Boobies' Names Are...

Betty and Veronica

Boobie Name Generator

He's Absolutely Committed to You!

Your guy is committed to you, as if you were already married
And hopefully, you show the same commitment to him
While you may have had your ups and downs, you've smoothed things out
If the two of you aren't serious, you will be soon
So start secretly planning your wedding
It may happen sooner than you think!

Will He Commit?

You Are 56% Vain

You're a little vain, but more than anything you have a healthy amount of confidence.
Thinking the world of yourself is great. Just don't think less of those who aren't as pretty as you!

How Vain Are You?

Both of You Wear the Pants

You and your guy seem to have stuck the perfect power balance.
It's not that you don't disagree - it's just that you've learned how to compromise well.
You're both mature enough to know that you can't always get your way...
And usually, you're both adult enough to reach an agreement - even if that sometimes means giving in a little.

Who Wears the Pants... You or Your Guy?

Your IQ Is 105

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average

Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average

Your Mathematical Intelligence is Above Average

Your General Knowledge is Genius

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

You Are Lacy Panties

You're one seductive chica, but you've also got a ton of class.
You are like a pinup girl, with timeless beauty and sexiness.
Men are afraid to talk to you, knowing they'll be addicted to your charm immediately.
Only a true manly man, confident in himself, is your perfect match.

What Kind of Panties Are You?

He Loves You For You

When it comes to your body, your guy hardly notices
It's nothing to do with the way you look...
He's just has really fallen for you
But make sure to stay sexy - keep the chemistry going strong!

Does He Only Love You For Your Body?

You Are a Pretty Good Liar

Your lies are somewhat believable, but sometimes you get caught.
Work on keeping your body language and emotions calm. And you'll be a better liar in no time!

Are You a Good Liar?

Start Hunting For That New Apartment

You two are ready to live together - and probably have been for a while
You're a perfect match, even if you don't agree on everything
What's important is compromise... a skill you and your guy have mastered
So head out to Bed, Bath, and Beyond. It's time for your new life together!

Should You Live With Your Boyfriend?

You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament

Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.
You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.
You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.

It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.
You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.
While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.

At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.
You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.
You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.

What Temperment Are You?

Your Girl Parts Are Named:

The Cock Pit

Girl Parts Name Generator

You Couldn't Cheat On Your Guy

Not that you'd want to anyway!
You're incredibly loyal and honest...
Definitely not the cheating kind.

Could You Cheat On Your Guy?

If You Were Born in 2893...

Your Name Would Be: Iara Reunn

And You Would Be: An Evil Space Warlord

If You Were Born in 2893

You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance
You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea
The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood
It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful
But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself
You're the perfect blend of independent and caring
You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

He is a Man

You have yourself a perfect gentleman and a total keeper
Your guy almost always acts appropriately
He's probably even very upstanding when you're not around
There's no boy left in your boyfriend - he's all man!

Is He A Boy or a Man?

You Are 52% Control Freak

Generally, you are in control but not a control freak. You life is usually in order.
However, sometimes you get too obsessed with making everything in your life picture perfect.

Are You A Control Freak?

2007-09-22T11:44:00.000+08:00

Your Love is Based on Commitment

You believe that love is something that develops and grows.
You don't believe in love at first site, and you never mistake lust for love.
For you, love is about mutual devotion, respect, and understanding.
You don't feel comfortable in a relationship, unless you're both in it for the long run.

Why your love can last: You don't take commitment lightly - or leave relationships easily

Why your love can fail: You're so committed, you often can't see the most obvious problems in your relationship

What Is Your Love Based On?

2007-09-18T20:40:00.000+08:00

today was smooth going. fyp with the boys was orite. bumped into problems every now and then, but we tried various ways and means to get over it.

after fyp, played pool and foosball(sp?) with zeeq b4 heading home.

it was a peaceful day.

ta~

2007-09-16T15:28:00.000+08:00

thanks aL and tas.

it was great chatting with u two.

2007-09-16T13:33:00.000+08:00

i hate u. no matter wat u do, i hate you. i treasured u. i appreciated things u did for me, things that u went thru for me. but, no more. anything u do will just be something that u are forced to do, coz it's ur responsibility.

it's either u, or ur words, or ur another half who would ruin my day. who spoils the plan. who makes things diff for me and and my frens. do u really think u making my life better this way? do u really think u've educated me well, disciplining me in this manner would make me a better person? and do u think that i would change and actually abide to the things u say by criticising, deciding for me in ur bland taste of choice and not seeing in my point of view? think again.

and you. of all ppl. i really thought u would understand me. i thought i knew u. i'm wrong. very wrong. the hurt, pain, void in my voice which u couldnt sense. or u just choose to ignore. im not craving for fuckin attention. im just begging for some real affection; not everytime, only when i really need it. u do ur own things, but without a care about me. why do u leave me out? why do u make me bug u?

i dont like the way i am too, sometimes. im not like this becoz i want to be like this. look at the ppl ard me. the ones who i lived thru my 19yrs with. as much as i wanna change, ur attitude of not caring makes me wanna stay this way, as it's for the better.
i feel as though u're not happy with me, anymore.

i just wanna emigrate. to somewhere; someone who really knows me. or to a place where no cares about each other and still goes about in life happily and worry-free. just a fantasy, i guess.

im tied down with chains. i wanna break free. let me break free.

i have so much to say, but im afraid i cant put it in a right way. i need you, but u don't know when and don't understand why.

yes. it's all about I today. just let me be.

2007-09-07T16:00:00.000+08:00

im dead bored. having diarrhoea does makes me rushing to and fro the toilet, but its one hella painful affair. ouchh.

im dead bored. that i have been posting bulletins on frenster. and i've never been interested to do so. gosh. im even entertaining crappy bulletin posts. *smacks myself*

spent the early aftnn chatting with rash, tas, alfie and khairi. it was hilarious with the 2 squids. and hanaa, if u're reading this, u'll miss out on earthquake this mon if u dun tag along. wahahahaha! and alfie, im glad u're soo fine right now. and u're not fat. a lil extra meat doesnt make u look sick.

dila. kau hutang aku sushi. gimme sushi first, then ill get u kfc. =)

2007-09-05T22:20:00.000+08:00

school holidays now.

after the rain so tk deserve. so boring. no looks. no voice. so yuck. i hate monggur. she looks like a maid trying hard to dress up herself. fendi rocks. i love revalina(sp?). and the other grp. sugarettes make me wish i could sing like them. victor is also boring, y him?

fyp is on its way. tt's good.

i feel mcm empty gitu w/o school. randomness.

went back to school on last fri. it was teacher's day. it was onli me, vic, feli and aisyah. feli is very the sexy now. vic is less vulgar.

and elf, mmg btul ape kau ckp. the things u told me abt a fren of ours. it's sad.
promises made, it's all a facade. "i'm sorry"-s are all pure fake-ness. "ill try to make it/ ill see u then"- just shut up next time round, orite. really. u're not living in reality. u onli come back to reality when u're hurt and crestfallen.

sometimes, i wish my life was different. as in, it was in a better light. in way that my parents dont bother so much as they do now. controlling my life.

sometimes, i dont like my character. i dont like the way i am. the way i feel at times. the way i treat ppl. the way i treat the ppl who care abt me. but i cant help it. somehow, i feel, devilishly, that they deserve it.

i cant help being persistent, stubborn, annoying, and keeping tabs on everything. it's just the way i am. though, at times, i just wanna be free. not caring abt anything.

sometimes, i care too much. i've been giving, and not receiving as much. i have my insecurities. alot at that, too.

reading liya's and ali's LJ never fail to enlighten me, in various ways. bringing things to light; justifying issues, getting everything out there with the right words. i wish i was like that. sometimes, i wish i was like them.

argh.

i have no idea wat im talking abt.

i feel empty, but then ill feel fulfilled and lucky. other times, i feel ignored; and other times i feel special. is it just me..?

i want a life. i know i cant get a perfect one, but at the very least, the way i want it to be.

2007-08-16T02:52:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test hereHave a go here. Let's see how well you do. It's not that tough, anyways. really. =)

2007-08-11T20:10:00.000+08:00

i want my exams to be over and done with, now. but, it's just a thought.

i want a part time job, so that i can satisfy my hunger for a shopping spree.

i need new shoes, along with new bags as well as handbags to go with the shoes. i found out that i dun have handbags that can go with my shoes. it's ridiculous bringing the a- lil- bit- than- big- bags that i bring to school out for a leisure outing with my gfs, or mr. Bonch.
erm. having more variety of shoes to choose from prevents bad feet odour. *winks*

i need more new jeans; so does someone else. haha.

for now, all i need is money. and then, i'll be truly happy. materialistic, no?

2007-08-11T14:41:00.000+08:00

i love my gold flats.

2007-08-06T20:58:00.000+08:00

lemme clarify the prev post; for my own sake.

i never said it was ur fault. and i dun think it's mine either. i asked you wat i should do, when i should go for it- u said it was all up to me. so i made up my mind, and asked u for a lil help. i still didnt get an ans at all last nite. and i had a feeling u lied. u said u didnt asked ur brother, but then u also told me the person was busy. which was it? and with this, you said u did help. after which u sarcastically admitted it was your fault; in a way which should shut me up and not pursue the matter.

why didnt you say anything when i asked for your opinion? when i confronted you, only then you said i should wait after exams. wat is actually goin thru your mind? i asked u, over and over and over again the same ques. but u chose to leave it up to me. in the end, when i reminded you to do what i need you to do, u turned your back.

i dun understand. am i being to harsh? but how could i be; when i gave u many chances to say what u wanted.

stop being this way. please.

2007-08-06T12:42:00.000+08:00

had a bad start to the week.

haiz. i also dunno y. my fault, huh?

2007-07-29T14:24:00.000+08:00

ystd was games day (npcc event). we got second. a good fight with eastview. was damn tired. reach home, trus took a flight to lalaLand.

i wannt watch simpson the movie, rush hour 3 & alone. and i want more and more moneyyy!

money's the world to me!

right.

ta~

2007-07-25T23:00:00.000+08:00

tears welled up in my eyes.

no. nth unfortunate happened to me. it was bcoz i read a blog of a dear fren. i am saddened as i can feel her pain. the emotion that's tugging at ur already messed up heart when memories are rmbred. when u just lost. when looking at others make u feel very alone, though frens are always, always by ur side.

that was from my perspective.

though, i know u're a strong babe. strong as u maybe, it hurts so much. moving on is tough. so, hang in there. easy to say; but difficult to put it into action. but i've got faith in u, darling.

2007-07-25T17:06:00.001+08:00

fuck off la, idoit. u're so damn bloody annoying and not relevant. and u're accusing and saying stuff abt ppl that they're wrong in wat they're trying to say, stopping someone else during their presentation rehearsal, stating that u're right as u wanted it to be tt way and not this way.

fyi, this is abt fyp.

go and blame others, dear suckkyyy grpmate.

it's ur own fault that u didnt speak up. and no one asked u to start on the report alone. yea, blame us for not starting early, and for not entertaining u when u asked when to start. but in the end, we did do sth, when all of the sudden u arrive with the almost complete piece of the report. i hate u. and u've got urself to blame when no one wanted to entertain u.

stop side tracking. listen to wat ppl are saying. when u've lost, dun say u intend it to be tt way or say that the other person was to blame.

unfortunately, i haf to stick to this pest till the end of the project.

assholllllleeeeeeeeee.

2007-07-24T17:47:00.000+08:00

it's so hectic. im mentally tired.

i cant seem to communicate with someone. it's so hard.. it's so futile. it's useless trying to get thru him. at some point of time, he uses the exact same point that i brought up before; and making it his own. frustrating nk mampos. KNN larrr.

fyp presentation tmr. formal office wear. and i love it. i look hot in office wear. wahahahha! i wanna work in an office so tt i can dress up everyday. hehe.

gems project. aux mach. project. ship powering proj. exams in a couple of weeks time.

major, MAJOR hectic-ness.

ta~

2007-07-22T15:02:00.000+08:00

it had been one hectic week last week. it's gonna be not-so-nice start to the week tmr, i predict.

exams are just a few more weeks away. sad but true. gems project must be done by this week; provided if one of my grpmate does his part fast. fyp presentation this weds, after which we have to constantly meet up and get our hands dirty; unfortunate but it's a fact.

i've been stuffing myself with food, though i really dont want to. im fat, again. ouhno.

"it's tough; i'm scared, but it's all about trust. dun let me down.
i never wanna re-visit that period of lost and hurt."- randomness.

ta~

2007-07-16T10:11:00.000+08:00

olaaa readers. if there's still any.

at mac's at the moment. waiting for the next class. iqbal daddy and sis aL are beside me now... hehe... kk. aku giler. hi ball!

k la. tt's all.

ta~

2007-07-15T15:42:00.000+08:00

transformers rocks my ass! totallyy!

harry potter was such a bummer. too much talking. bleaahh.

SMA day was on last friday, 13th. it was pretty good, i must say. the highlight was when noris liciuos, a drag queen, went up on stage. it wasnt as bad as i tot it would be. he was a malay guy. and he's really hilarious. i love him. he spoke of heavenly parts of both women and men. haha. as he said "i am certified halal by muis too, u know!" hahaha!!

got my dose of body shop shopping. managed to drag mom so that she'd pay for it. hehe. replenished my quacker oats energy bars. yummmmy! in the evening, did a lil thang =) shhhh. elfi was the onli one to catch it. hehhe.

stay in today. back to school tmr. and no more adrena from tmr onwards. =(

-snip-

loves.

ta~

2007-07-11T13:13:00.000+08:00

hellooo alll!

im in the other squids' gems class rite now. aft spending lunch with them, and ending it off with a truckload of laughters. huge huge truckloads. -winks-

ystday, wenta adrena's house to play x-box and spend time with her. ordered pizza. andre played along as well. we laughed and flashed-back ourselves to the times when we were NPCC cadets. and i damn envy herr la. hmm.

i wanna be rich. but i dun wanna work. can? pfffft.

and tas just tot i said beef. pfffft. i said pffffft. hahah.

this class is pretty boring seyy. luckily i didnt take this. but with these girls ard prolly would be the solution to the boring syndrome. but too bad. im not with them. kk. very random fact. and the lecturer's voice is so annoying. sheeeesh.

i miss adibah's loudness. i miss u, gorgeous. i miss fabbie, u dark army boy.

k. da.

transformers. robots in disguise. da. wakakakkaka!

ta~

2007-07-10T13:51:00.000+08:00

Area 8 ATC was acceptably fun. besides the delays during the first evening, things manage to pass by smoothly the next day. the cadets, in my opinion, were no more like my batch before. they lack... passion? i dunno. but sth's missing.

the new batch of CIs were a bunch of happy bubbles. cliche; but ill just say it. it was a breeze working with u darlings.

so, u didnt havta snap at me again. there was still time. we weren't late. i dun understand y u were so impatient.

SMA day will be on this friday. well, oh well. let's see how fun it'll be. but one thing's for sure. my gfs and i gonna have some fun of our own; no matter the place and time.

ta~

2007-06-30T20:45:00.000+08:00

i think it's pretty sad tt the govt is tearing down a few of singapore's historical landmarks. it's a good sign that we're progressing towards a more better and modern nation; but it's not nice to recreate something that has serve us good into whole new and different architecture.

take the national stadium. today is the last day for it to stand ever so proudly b4 it vanishes just like that. it'll turn out into something that is sooo damn different. something so superficial. a sports hub. shitnits. i think singapore is being a lil bit too dreamy. and a big glutton. trying to be the hub of every other thing. ughh. the national stadium is such a nostalgic place. tearing it down is so wrong.

and the seletar area. tearing down some residential places to make way for some aero crap stuff.

well. my opinions dont matter.

ta~

2007-06-30T11:34:00.000+08:00

thursday.

was still pissed. went home right away aft school.

ystday.

i attended all the classes! hehe. sucha goodie two shoes. right. rashidah crashed the the aftnn classes with me. aft tt, her situation got a lil kecoh coz her hp was dying. haha. during my shipping business class, rash and me played sorta a prank; spraying water at ppl on the first level. hehe.

wenta mkn.. things went great.

ta~

2007-06-27T20:55:00.000+08:00

monday.

wenta meet ad, ali, chinz, and skinny siti. it's loads of laughter. we were loud. i miss being tt loud. thanks girls for the great start to my week.

ystday.

nth much. actually, i cant really rmbr tt much.

today.

spent the aftnn with dilaaaa. haha. we went to search names randomly in frenster. mcm2 yg kluar. someone named taik terlepas pun ade. hahhaha!

i miss u. hardworking. helpful. outgoing. active. caring. loving. romantic. apologetic. u're not there anymore. but im afraid to voice out; for u're not that person. anymore.

2007-06-24T14:17:00.000+08:00

im envious of SheZai. period.

ill wait for my turn. i hope.

2007-06-24T12:30:00.000+08:00

so, hello there.

just got back from brunch.

rotting at home the whole day.

last nite, i was friendstering ard mats and minahs profile. haha. i dunno y. i find the pictures they put up are so ridiculously tk tau malu. i found this changkat changi sec girl; i think she's just 16; but i must admit she does look pretty. beach chick. bikini. halter and all. quite liberal. then i found this arab girl who looks damn eurasian; whose doings totally taints the whole image of the arab community.

there's also a 29-yr-old mother who still goes clubbing with the hubby; hubby has tattoos all over his chest and the wife has tattoo on her xtra protruding breasts. there's another 20-plus female being who does pole dance and proudly show it off in the pic. such distaste. come to think of it, i've looked at onli, most of it, minahs' profiles. dbl-o is da place for them- most of these ppl have many, many pictures frm there. dont go to dbl-o. it's disgusting just thinking abt the scene there with these beings strewn all over the place.

i dunno how they turn out like that. it's not wrong to club, but-please- have some shame. like the 16 yr old girl, i cant understand how her mother is giving her tt much freedom when it comes to things like wardrobe. part of me envy her. but i dont think showing off tt much skin is the onli way to state that u're pretty.

oh yea. there's this guy who posts a video of him from youtube, singing a song, on almost every minahs's profile i went to. a comment to this girls, but it's all abt him, dawg! and he added this at the bottom some more -quoted from him- "Penyanyi kat sini yang tak laku ingin nak sing a song for you...kalau tak sedap tegoh yer.... :) " translate: unwanted singer here wants to sing a song for u... if not nice, please confront, aites.... :) u know, nvm, keep quiet kayss.. sheeeesh. anddddddd... he has a frenster blog, in which he bersyarahan abt frenster is becoming a place where ppl find soulmates, not frens. and he kutuk2 those who onli accepts "good looking" ppl. OMG. wat is wrong with YOU?! to add, he has the statistics too... kimeekkk. check it out.

"Wanna know wat?? guys age 16-23 most of them masih pikir nak flirt and enjoy....yang above 23 tu, serlalunya dah relex. Tend tu save money to get married macam AAHEEMM (i lah). Tapi dengan saper seh nak kahwin?? tulah...stand by je...steady lama leh kekal ke?? i went throught 4yrs, tak ponnn.....my kawan 9 years, tak ponn....its not the time yang concern, its the "clik" and the "love" that concern.
Girls yang age between 16 to 20, dorang setia habis sama guy dorang. Takut nak break lah ni semua...pasal they think they got MR RITE...80% i say susah nak kekal unless the guy is baik type...wat I mean baik is...his a kind type. Main friendster tapi letak pic her girl kat the whole page sampai kat dinding rumah pon dia tampal gambar gerl dia...abih sebelum tidor letak pic girl dia kat DAYI so could dream of her gerl dalam mimpi. Nak tahu pulak guys yang bukan under category ni will do?"

sempot dokkk bace....!!! wakakkakakaka! to add lagikkkk.. he still posts clips and snippets of he and his ex of, 4yrs i guess. fuuuhyoo! mcm2 gmbr la, dude. jln raye. candid (read: slutty) pics of the girl. all the way back frm 2002 till this yr. ntah la. prolly break up this yr, but he's happy go lucky. haizz.

aku mcm nk post je the links i've mentioned. but tkpe la. ill share it with u personally. hehehe.

ok. i shall stop here. im THAT free. yess. hahahha. i get a good laugh out of this. i shall do this again soon.

wahhh. soo damn long la this post. nvm. once in a while dedicate a post to these shameless malay beings out there.

ta~

2007-06-23T17:31:00.000+08:00

wooooohooo! a definite reason for me to blog!

adrena darling is backkkkk!!!! woooohooo! but for 3 weeks onli. but wat the heck.

i've gotta meet feli, and adrena. and shahidah sotong. who else? fab. more of elfi and liyana. and ali baba. ouuh. and siti spideyyy. and craziie chin fu. the table ppl!

so. my holidays turned out alrite. soon, it's back to school. ssp camp a few days back. it was relaxing. the freshies are the same as the previous ones. as crazy. as hilarious. as sporting. =)

carrom marathon with hanaa and other freshies and frens. jeff, u power la! late supper at al ameen with hanaa, din, an-an, yus and wak. mcm2 la dorang.. biase la. no joke, tk sah. experience din's boggling driving once again, but this time, it's safer coz he has license already.

went home on second nite. during tribal council. man, if i were the freshies, i would have screamed as well.

halfway thru today, adrena made my day. damn u. it's no doubt a surprise. yippppiee! x-box time!! tmr's sunday, and then, back to school. u always, always get back when we're at school, ad.

is it true tt dearest fren of mine is like tt? i dunno wat to say, or do. im all very glad she's happy; not blaming everything on herself and hating the world. but with tt said, wat happens if....

nvm.

ta~

2007-06-12T20:19:00.000+08:00

the day u went to enrol. i wanted to check which buses went there coz it might easier the next time. i had no idea there werent any bus. i didnt know u've checked. i didnt know at all. u didnt have to snap at me. make tt face. kept all quiet. u know i would have preferred u telling me straight up why u werent happy. i cried bcoz i was disappointed, scared. confused. i never want to cry.

i was never this girl tt's so weak. but because of u, i let myself loose from everything. i may still be uptight, but im trying.

i never intend to hurt u. i had no idea i did, when i did so. but we've talked abt it. tt u'll say wat u wanna say. u promised to not keep it in u.

im sorry tt i annoyed u.

you're my unintended.

2007-06-12T00:41:00.000+08:00

bkn aku tknk update. aku nye internet connection kongasam, tas.

fri. last paper. let's just hope the best for the results. played carrom, and went hysterical over it. fun. fun. fun. lepaked at MLS till abt 4 plus. headed down to stadium. did some jogging wit mummy hanaa. it was refreshing.

saturday. CI meeting in the morning. it was dreadful. one or two were so hopeless. they're so, like, u know... u cant u just follow standard normal procedures. and the higher ranking one was so leceh. so kerekk. ugh. dropped by silat comp at NUS. it was a whole lot of fun. hope i can stay longer, though. met andy and khairul, or samsul, there.

sunday. jogging wit ema in the evening.

today. simply simple day. met rashidah at 2, walked ard.. looking prezzie for her mom's bdae. waited for aisyah to finish her shift. went to century. caught O13. it's was nice. no biggie. but it's worth the moolahs. rash, USA ehh? lol.

it's like the damn movie fever. pirates, shrek, O13, F4, transformers, nancy drew... aiyyohhh. all one after another. well, movie buffs' pockets are gonna be empty one week aft another too.

nenek(sotong), jgn fikir2 k. things will be all better. just distract urself. u should wat's best for u. kalo kau tk tau, aku bilang. tkpee.. aku nk bilang skrg je la. the best thing is US! kiterrrr! wakakakaka! sayang kau!

ta~

2007-06-06T23:20:00.001+08:00

lunch with the girls this aftnn. of coz, stupid antics and sotongness is always part of it when we meet up.

sat at cliff for a while, waited for zaidi to finish class. headed off with nenek, mummy, makcik. off to town. i wanna mini shrek dolls. they're too adorable. if they're out at stores, i HAVE to get them. dropped by aigner, but elfi wasnt there. just missed him, said one of his colleagues. and the handbags there are nice, nice, nice. but there's no way in hell, nor heaven, i can afford it. =(

well, ppl are still reading my blog. haha.. i very am.. wat's the word? touched? well, thank you. love u all! =)

ta~

2007-06-05T21:58:00.000+08:00

heyys!

term tests are here all week long. and i must admit i have not scurrying that much as the rest of my fellow schoolmates. i dunno y. i just dun feel the push. when someone encourages me to do so, ill just shrug it off. attitude? hmm. go figure.

spent time with the girls again this aftnn... waited for darling rashidah to finish her paper, then headed home together with her.

nth much. nth interesting. just ALOT of private jokes btwn me and my darlings. which i should not, at all, publish it here. hahhs.

peace out. stay in school. (wtf??)

anyhhoos;

ta~

2007-06-01T20:53:00.000+08:00

today wasnt as bad i tot it would be.

the day started out with a short test during the plant diagnostics prac. it was orite. just a pass would. it i get a fail, i wouldnt mind tt much either. heh.

ate brunch wit bal. saddiq came and joined us.. and the girls later joined too during lunch! wooohoo! aft lunch, i finally decided to join hanaa and fren go shopping. well, for us it'll be window shopping. turns out tt fren of her's was zaidi's fren too. small city, ya? tas and rash tagged along! yayyy! and of coz, along the way, sotong-ness and laughter is a must. without fail =)

im gonna save as much as i can; then get the shoes and belt frm aldo and tt bag frm zara. am i squandering my moolahs just like tt? prolly, yes. but i cant help it. the shopperholic me has kicked in! and by when im gonna get tt stuff? hopefully by mid-mth.. hopefully. i havta scrimpppp then.

i had fun babes. and it was a pleasure making aquaintance with u, faiz.

ta~

2007-05-31T18:07:00.000+08:00

so, i have been sitting here since 2pm, watching comedies on youtube. thank god some are funny. from my wife and kids, to reba and under one roof; then lucky enuf to find PCK, though it's onli one episode.

waiting for 51st date... and tmr is friday. i dun like friday coz school's boring on fri. the lessons are crappy. except for the first one. the lecturer frm that practical is happeninggg! haha.. cool teacher.

hope ur holiday was more fulfilling than mine.

ta~

2007-05-31T00:04:00.000+08:00

tuesday:

spent almost the whole day playing games on messenger with hanaa and tas. it seems that hanaa is infactuated with the games on MSN. hahaha.. shouldnt have introduced it to her. even in class, we went online and played games; though in my case, the lecturers were having revisions.

wednesday:

brought the laptop to school again. so how hard core we are. and when hanaa didnt manage to find me online, she found some other fren to play against her. mummy, mummy! after school, studied at moberly with the girls, zaidi and wan. it turned out to be a mix of food and laughter. yup. food. food that didnt belong to us. it was a reception meant for some group who was having a meeting in the next rm, which we have really no idea of. honest. so, me and hanaa were sneaking food into plastic bag for our own consumption. hahaa.. with a lil help frm wan. aside frm all these, i did managed to finish one chapter.

and, and, and... i met james frm siglap at the foodcourt just now! as in the drama james! he's in SP!! yayyy! james has hair. like loong hair. no more crew cut siglap style james. =) and aft tt, on the way in the train, i met andy wawa! as in andy chua, frm 4H! he's in police.. u know those officers tt patrol mrt trains. yea. but it was great to see andy!! missed him.. tt day, met sunhaj at sp too. it's like mini bits of reunion. i aint complaining, though.

today:

well, still watching how to lose a guy in 10 days. it's gonna be a looong and boring day. tmr too. arghh. i want this week to end! and CONGRATS to elfiii! he made it to LaSalle(sp?)!! all the way, darling!

happy vesak day, ppl. enjoy ur holidays.

ta~

2007-05-29T11:21:00.000+08:00

at school at the moment... next class will be at 1. so it's a loooong break. but i have my lappie with me... though it onli has half of its life left.

bal, naa and nenek tas are here with me...

tt's all for now...

ta~

2007-05-28T21:15:00.000+08:00

today was happy happyyy!

playing MSN Messenger games is the IN thing among us girls. we were all at fc2 just so we could play UNO, checkers and 7 hand poker. kecoh as usual, not forgetting laughters and stoopid blunders.

i broke one of my fingernails again. this is the second time. =(

blades of glory was superbly hilarious. i wonder how that guys felt when he touch the other's groin. hmm. hahaha. it was just like any other stupid but funny which is no brainer at all, which is good for sotongs like us. hehe.

pirates was worth the money. though it was longer than expected. quoting ema's words, but in my perspective, "orlando bloom makes me wet my panties!" hahhaa.. he was charming and deliciously hot in every way, esp when the camera catches a peek of his chest. oooooh.

it's gonna be a short week. which is no good coz term tests are next week. horrible terrible how fast time flies. time to squeeze everything into the 5% of wat we're using from the brain. or so ppl say.

me gonna watch some teeveee, mateys!

savvy~

2007-05-25T22:57:00.000+08:00

today didnt go as bad as i tot it would be. but i had an unfortunate incident.

practical/lab was fun. mr nasser was superbly awesomely happening nye lecturer! wooohoo! he's damn cool. funny, and easy going. he made the session bearable.

aft tt was fyp time. decided to take out the front cover... when... all of a sudden, the whole metal frame of the sewage tank dropped onto my feet, or toe. my big toe. now it's bigger than usual. it's still painful, though it's been frm noon just now.

the rest of the day was spent solving sudoku puzzles, and slacking while my mummy hanaa and sista aL did their elearning whatnots.

suggestions to reduce the pain in my toe? anyone?

nites.

2007-05-24T21:35:00.000+08:00

urgggh! someone just had to ruin my day. my great awesome day! argghhh!

i was enjoying, drowning myself at Zara with the colourful range of clothings there; got the bag from Aldo. tot of ending it nicely by going home and chilling out.

but no.

my fypmate has to insist on bringing damn overalls tmr, and start doin the watever-it-is-for fyp. which means lugging the not necessary ugly overalls and heavy ugly safety shoes. ugh. idiot. idiot!! and at the same time, i have to attend lab tmr morn, aft which ill be having a meeting with GEMS classmates. eeeeeee!

i dun like this at ALL.

u're annoying me. and the rest of my grpmates arent responding to my sms, informing them abt tmr. annoying, annoying nk mampos. ughh.

thanks for ruining my almost perfect day.

ughh.

2007-05-23T21:23:00.000+08:00

the guy on deal or no deal is sooo annoying. this old chiinese guy is soooo melebihhh! big talk. just shut up and do wat u wanna do la. idiot. arghh.

i just hate elearning. it's just so bloody boring.

hazeeq was AWESOME last niteee! vote for hazeeeeq! his code is M4. send undi M4 to 73388. c'mon ppl... he has wat it takes!!! vote! vote!

remedial tmr morning. engineering math.

nites.

2007-05-22T17:13:00.000+08:00

in sch. i think i had enuf of elearning. gona get ready to go to anugerah.

watch it tonight kays. suria. 8.30pm.

support elhazeeq!!!

ta~

2007-05-20T22:20:00.000+08:00

just reach home from dinner at chai chee. the usual place. the chicken in lemon sauce was deliciouss and tangyyy.

kinda updated my LJ. yes. i have one. but it's such a horrendous sight. like other ppl have pretty pretty layouts. but wat the heck. ill just use the acct to read my frens' entries. =)

rotted at home the whole day today. and damn, i feel i've lost touch of blogging. my posts arent "fun" anymore. oh wells.

and i wonder if i still have my readers.

have i mentioned i caught Phantom of the Opera twice? =) first was with gorgeous ali... and second with the lil brother.

Pics from the first time...

shots with the HUGE poster outside the theatre.

at the end of it all.

just a couple of shots of endless posing here and there...

and finallyy, heading home...

ta~

2007-05-20T14:35:00.001+08:00

LET'S GET FUNKYYYY!

2007-05-20T00:37:00.000+08:00

i've decided to leave the skin as it is nw. wat do u think? shout out ur opinions aite.

CI meeting with Tian Siang and Aisyah just now was very loong. 3 hrs. though it's an effective one. im gonna try my very best to commit myself to this one lil event tt we're organising.

and im gonna try my very best too, to update as often as possible.

nites.

ta~

2007-05-19T15:57:00.000+08:00

things on my blog are pretty messed up at the moment... trying to edit here and there. it's going nowhere, fyi.

going out to whitesands. CI meeting.

ta~

2007-05-19T01:22:00.001+08:00

and soooo, im updating rite now!

alot has been happening, and has happened.

life has been better... getting better slowly. gradually. things might be bumpy, but hey, as long as i can cope, i wont complain. besides a much better life now, things have been hectic. fyp. projects sprouting everywhere. and classes arent getting any funner. ponteng-ing is becoming a hobby of mine. and tt's not good.

went to watch phantom of the opera at the esplanade theatre with gorgeous adibah. she was with make up when im met her! and it was our first date, just the 2 of us. the show was incredible. the words to describe the show are the words equal to the synonym of fabuloustaticcally gooooood!

and Anugerah '07 is on my weekly agenda. coz Elhazeeq Ul Haq is in it! and he made it thru the first round! wooohoo! i, hereby, would like to ask u darlings to vote, support & believe in him. he has the talent and perserverance. not forgetting passion. as a bonus, he's pretty adorable. im not kidding. he's pretty. heh. =) so, give him ur support; u wont be disappointed.

that's all.

ta~

2007-03-11T15:00:00.002+08:00

"aku muntah kalo aku mkn ayam again, soon"

me and dila stuffed ourselves with varieties of marinated chicken at seoul garden yesterday aftnn. it was a treat frm me. a VERY advance happy birthday, darl.

all has been well.

the guys at work have been a lil bit, i dunno. arrogant? distant? ignorant? like i dun exist. i feel like im in first year in poly again.

i miss my crazy girlfrens. i went to tas' blog and i was amused at the pics. tt's the least i can do. since i wasnt there.

i miss emsie.

i miss feli.

i miss my siglapians clique.

im gonna rot at hm. and i've gained weight. is tt good?

ta~

2007-03-11T15:00:00.001+08:00

it could've been the first.

but im not gonna broad on it. im glad now. for everything.

2007-03-05T21:39:00.001+08:00

ugly betty. it's desperate housewives in the fashion industry. it's addicktive. =)

oh baby
bring it all to me
i dont need ur fancy cars or diamond ring
oh baby, bring it all to me
gimme ur love, ur space, ur time, ur energy.

ta~

2007-03-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

im mentally tired. no.

im physically tired. no.

i dunno.

but earning the knowledge is motivating me hang in there for 5 more weeks.

i pray life will get better for me and everyone tt i care about. insya'Allah.

ta~

2007-03-03T21:24:00.000+08:00

i love my mom. i really do. but sometimes, i cant help but hurt her. i know i've hurt her again and again. im sorry, mom. i do love u.

life's getting better, but it's more hectic. im unsure. specifically what, i dunno. im scared and unsure. i told myself im willing to take a risk. it'll be bumpy, but i gotta get things together.

do wat i need to do...

i tot i had it. but i dont. i think i dont.

oh. forget it. it's never meant to mean anything. this entry, tt is. it's just an outlet to rant.

nites.

2007-02-24T21:18:00.000+08:00

Ah. the warmth.

but, note to myself: don't start hoping too high. it's only suicidal.

2007-02-20T23:27:00.000+08:00

just a short post b4 i head to lala land.

had relaxing holiday break =) though the parentals had to spoil at the start of it, it went on well afterwards. yayy!

drowned myself with prison break season 2... half way though. but im really working hard finding the second half of the season. im hookedd!

back to work tmr. second week. it'll be short. i hope.

ta~

2007-02-17T23:26:00.000+08:00

apparently, some ppl just cant keep their noses out of other ppl's business even though they consider themselves mature adult. and married. u eat chilli, u taste the pedas-ness.

attachmt's going pretty well. having schoolgirl crushes on my 'colleagues'. hehh.. but it's just harmless crushes. learning a whole lot from the ppl there. it's been very enriching. and to add, though not of any importance, i feel damn awkward coz i know im being stared at every moment by the 'banglas'... some are very nice and frenly, not wat u would expect frm a bangla. those are the ones i work with. the whole 95.67% of the rest in the shipyard thinks it's ok to prey on me. scaryyy u noe.. not onli me. i think the rest of the ladies in the office department get the same attention too. luckily there's khai and the other guys to keep my company during lunchtime. other than tt, i keep my stare on the ground, or if it gets too much, ill give them a glare tt could spark off a fight. hahh.

slept from 3 to 8pm just now. it' was greaaaatt! after waking up damn eff-ing early everyday, it was a good make-up sleeping session.

hanaa and hannah are off to m'sia. enviously annoying. i need a break too.

happy holidays. gong xi fai cai.

ta~

2007-02-13T20:48:00.000+08:00

picnic on sunday was a blast. i just wished it could have been dragged longer, lovelies. =)

attachmt is goin well so far. it's kinda boring not being allowed to do the stuff my fellow colleagues are doin, but onli to look and learn for now. but the 'members' are a fun bunch! hard working individuals they are... im inspired. im suddenly like the main attraction sometimes when i walked ard the shipyard. hahha. honestly, im kinda motivated to work in keppel in the future. but i dunno if im good enuf. it's a great market, and a whole lot of new stuff for u to discover. the determination of my fellow 'colleagues' is so visible.. such tt i feel so lucky, yet, taking advantage of the opportunity that im presented to. i am defintely moved to really learn abt the real thing.

i've yet to take a picture of me in the whole suit. the overall, helmet, goggles, safety belt, safety shoes. i look adorable, i must say. hehehh.. im loving my attachmt, and i dun want it to end. really.

moving on. the arena tonight is noisy. it's so empty. full of crap and nth concrete. the onli pleasant factor tonight is my mr ashraf safdar. im melting...........

nights. i nd to catch up on my sleep.

ta~

2007-02-09T22:49:00.000+08:00

exams are over. no holidays though. ITP a.k.a attachmt is up next.

hanged out with peeps frm siglap for a while last nite. it was refreshing =)

im stuffing my weekend with activities. coz i wont have a life once my attachmt commences. soccer, lunch/mkn with ad & ems tmr. picnic on sunday with poly gfs.

life's gonna be tiringly boring once again.

"it still hurts, though sometimes i wish i could ignore and not care."

ta~

2007-02-06T22:37:00.001+08:00

and i FINALLY had my dose of LJS with the girls just now!

finallyyy!

2007-02-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

my darlings- hanaa and tas- definitely made my day today. i felt shitty earlier today... but then, they lightened things up and i felt reallll better after that. thank u so much, girls.

though it was just another walk around session at town, it was fun. it was simple, but hilarious. i missed that. i missed all 5 of us together. haiz.

thank u, once again, darlings. thanks for being there for me, even though it was for a while.

2007-02-05T01:24:00.000+08:00

Singapore won!

it was a pathetic performance by the lions during the first half. they fight on during second half, and boy, was i proud of khairul amri. (was it khairul who scored?). and im so ever proud too of lionel, my baby. he's such a man! aide was hopeless as captain. fahruddin seems as if he doesnt know what his role was on the field. and wat was mr. raddy thinking putting alam shah alone upfront? shessh.

and the thais. were they that rude? that no.7, thong lao. he was the devil of pig's shitnits. ugh. others were horrible. but he was the major-est bad news. he was the worst in the pile. i just wished the refree had the balls to give him a red card after wat he did to my riduan sayang.

face it, thong lao. we won. SINGAPORE won. we made it. we lifted the cup. u're just lucky u didnt get the card. u're just lucky tt u weren't humiliated in front of ur own people. fuck u, thong lao.

im sooo pissed at the thais. so rude. period.

watever it is, im glad singapore made it. they didnt let us, the supporters, down. congratulations, u roaring lions!

Marine Engineering Knowledge II. the paper's in abt 8 hrs time. ive yet to get one whole fact in my mind. im just preparing myself to repeat. y? i dunno.

ta~

2007-02-03T22:41:00.000+08:00

once again, im acting if my exams are over. hahas.

sawIII with mak and nenek. it's horrendous. sotong, squid and pekak having lunch over the movie was definitely not a good idea. hehe. but it was definitely fun being ard my girlfrens.

bdae surprise at sch from the darlings was refreshing. didnt expect them to turn up and celebrate it. thanks. alot! the guys just passed out bdae wishes onli. thanks too, guys.

wenta watch the 1st leg finals at the stadium. it was terrificcc! the 'buto' cheer. hahhaha! the irritating thais being carried out of the field at the very start of the game. and every other time after tt was a tad bit too annoying coz it disrupted the game. the enthusiastment(sp?) of the rest of the crowd/fan was awesome. period. u just havta be there. elfi was such a bummer when it came to soccer. hahha... but it was great meeting u up, boy! the kadireans were a fun bunch as usual. im glad i was there.

next paper on mon. then on fri. then, attachment begins on the following monday. sheesh. life's getting more and more hectic. more rushed. is time gonna pass by faster too? are our lives gona be just memories like yesteryears to all of ourselves coz yesterday was eons away, coz time flew by too very fast?

adilla presented me a drawing of her and me. it was really sweet of u. thanks alot sayang =) ill treasure it, tt's for sure.

ta~

2007-01-30T03:51:00.000+08:00

chris angel- mind freak is a hunk, baby! he's hot la. im melting.

2007-01-30T02:56:00.000+08:00

so, my first paper's later today. in abt 7 hours. honestly, i dunt feel confident. honestly, i dont care. honestly, i know i can do it. i dunno la.

im still damn bloody awake. i dunno y. i dunno wat drove me to stay awake this long while studying. it's been quite a very long while since i did this. staying up this late just to study.

and im kinda driven to do a wake-a-thon, or watever u call it. like wat dila's doin, i wanna try not sleeping. gosh. i feel half zombified already. i only wished i was at NPCC camp with as'ad and the gang... coz i feel really hyper rite now. coz im blogging.

soccer fever is on, i guess. yiippie.

im amazed tt im awake at this hr, studying. yes. i have to repeat tt. i think it's kinda good, coz im kinda afraid to sleep. i've been having this dreams tt felt so damn real. as cliche as it sounds, it's true. never have i had a dream that felt so real, that when i woke up in the middle of the nite, i cried that it was just a dream. everything felt so real-life. the words. the touch. the gestures. the person. i wish i could show it, but i dunno how. i damn wish tt the dream would come true. or at least, be close to that. oh, how i wish.

gonna study some more.. see if i have time to sleep or not. btw, this first paper is 3 hrs long. like u NEED to know. ughh. watever.

nites. morning, darls.

ta~

2007-01-28T15:25:00.000+08:00

had a HUGE brunch at downtown east just now. ate at sakura intnl buffet. it was definitely a yummylicious spread of cuisines. there's the fried stuffs, the plentiful sushi choices, there's the grilled stuff, salad, chinese, and sinful cakes and ice cream of ur choice =)

and i met FELICIA BABY DARLING thereeee! hehhe.. it was farika's(sp?) bdae! she is still as adorable as EVER! and feli darl is getting prettier by the moment.. feli, u remind me of tt actress frm princess hours!

i think my mr.PizzaHut had just lost someone dear to him. i really feel his lost. im not kidding. im speaking seriously. just in case he's reading this(yea,rite.), im sorry for ur lost. it's one of life's predicament. stay strong, though easier said than done, im sure u'll get by with ur frens and those who do care for u.

ta~

2007-01-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

exams stress are finally hitting on me. yup. it's horrendous.

singapore v.s m'sia. HOOOORAYYYY! singapore won riteeee at the LAST min. sheesh. preety mad at the way they played actually. it was rather weak and very not supportive of each other. riduan(sp?)- jersey no.2, had a good game tonite. very impressive play from him. and also jia yi(sp?)... the malaysians were pathetic. hahh.. i was damn HAPPY, sky high happyyy when L.L baby saved the ball kick frm tt malaysian during the last penalty shot.

SINGAPORE WINS!!!!!!!!!

weee~

bowling with the girls ystday was fun. hahha.. i had a strike!

i need to study. at least, practise and make sense out of the given solutions. and im worried and scared for someone's studies.

woooo, mr.PizzaHut is siZZZling HOT!

ta~

2007-01-24T22:02:00.000+08:00

i feeeeel soooo refreshed today. hahahha!!!

the girls have made me act as if my exams are damn over, but ive yet to take the first. well, for them, they have a couple more to go onlie. be-lar-dy la korang!

attended ITP briefing... havta to fill up the stoopid log book. so troublesome. part of me cant wait for the attachmt to start. but, still there's a lil part of me tt's very reluctant. reluctant to grow up.

first paper next week. it'll be a 3-hr paper. may God bless me.

lent my specs to aL this aftnn... and damn, she's a perfect Hanaa twin. one Hanaa is enuf. two? nah-uh. no thanks. wakakakkakaka!

i want my mr. PizzaHut. =)
he's damn be-lar-diii hot.

mak, aku sorii. kau just stick wit mr.Mayonaise, k? wakakkakakaka!!!

ta~